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seriously why do I keep this? XD

Ah so. Interesting story time.

I called the girls and left them a message. It's really hard for me to do that. I wanted them to be angry at me and forget me, I thought it would be easier for them. But then I remembered. I rmemebered how I felt when Ray left. I was about their age, and I didn't understand why he left. Even though they told me it wasn't my fault, I always felt it was. Because he didn't talk to me, I thought he hated me. I really hate admitting this, but this is my fault. I shouldn't have handled it this way, and it's time for me to make it right. Brienna deserves to see them one more time before she leaves for cali. And I'll do anything to help her get that.
So I called Ray. I called his cell, and this is what I said:
"Hey, it's Megan. If you could give me maybe five minutes, I really need to talk to you. This is important, so if you could call me for five minutes, I'd really appreciate it"
I can only hope that he'll accept it.

But, I'm not going to apologize to him. I don't feel that I've done anything to him. All the things I could have done, all the things I could have said, all the havoc I could have wrought in his life, I didn't do them. I'm not going to say something I don't mean. And that's why I'm making sure not to talk to my mom about this at all. She's a coward, she would want me to say things I don't mean, to "go along with it" and lie.

I hate talking to her about anything. She only thinks about how things affect her. She thinks that the only person who's hurting about Grandma's condition is her, and she won't talk about it. She forgot about my appointment, probably didn't bother scheduling another one because "Oh it's summer, there isn't anything troubling her, no, she didn't argue about Ray, she didn't find out her grandmother, whom she barely knows, is dying, her only other friend didn't move away, no, nothing at all." Of course, because you know, I was making up that I had depression, I was pretending that I was upset with my life, I have lots of friends who I hang out with every day and I never spend a whole day just sitting inside with  no one to talk to, no one to be around, no one to listen to me, nope. Nothing like that EVER happens.
FUck, I'm realyl starting to hate her. I try and do nice things for her, I make her coffee in the morning, I clean up the house without being asked, I do everything she asks of me, and she only yells at me when something just slipped my mind. I don't ever get thanked for anything I do. She thinks I just want material things. Yeah, I do want video games, because they distract me from reality. But what I want more than anything is for my own mother to recognize me. To, instead of saying "You need to study your japanese" but never offer to help, say "Wow, you've done so well". I went to a national competition and she never once said she was proud of me.

The more I think about this, the more annoyed I get with it. The more I realize how annoying it is, the angrier I get. Then I get angry over the fact I'm angry. I could really use a real life friend now. I need a hug, I need to get this anger out.  I really just need someone here who actually cares about me. It hurts realizing that I hate both of my parents.

Haha I am happeh XD

So yeah, I was bored. And I was on myspace XD



CHINESE HOROSCOPE (Freakishly Correct)
DO NOT CHEAT
OR IT WON'T WORK AND
YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN..T.

TAKE 3 MINUTES
TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT.

 

(note from Susi)This really made my heart like jump into my throat. It is majorly creepifying. Honestly I did not even cheat, and it came out with answers I didn't even let myself believe until now.(end note)

 

 

THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO ME SAID
HER WISH CAME TRUE 10 MINUTES AFTER SHE FORWARDED THE EMAIL

NO CHEATING!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME.

 

 

 


DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.

 

 


IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY


1st. Get PEN and PAPER

2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW

3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results.

4th SCROLL DOWN

ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON..T READ AHEAD
otherwise
YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

 

 

 

 

 

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

 

 

 

2. Next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2,

WRITE DOWN ANY
2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

 

 

 

 

 

 

3. Next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7,

WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. SAME SEX IF GAY

 

 

 

 

 

 

CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT

 

 

 

 

 

 


4. WRITE ANYONES NAME

(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)
next to 4, 5, & 6.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

DON..T CHEAT OR YOU..LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID

 

 

 

 

 

 

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


6. Finally,

MAKE A WISH

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


ARE YOU READY?
HERE IS THE

KEY TO THE GAME

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE THAT LIKE YOU is found in

SPACE 2

 

 

 

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE

3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

 

 

 


3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in

SPACE 7


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4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in

SPACE 4

 

 

 

 

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO

KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

 

 

 

 

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR

LUCKY STAR

 

 

 

 

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE

PERSON IN NUMBER 3

 

 

 


8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE

PERSON IN 7

 

 

 

 

9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT

YOUR MIND

 

 

 


10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU

FEEL ABOUT LIFE

 

 

 


11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR

LUCKY NUMBER
DUDE THIS IS WIERD AND FREAKY DEVIN SHOWED IT TO ME AND IF YOU DO IT YOU HAVE TO BE TRUTHFUL AND THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND YOU HAVE TO PUT ITAND BE OPEN MINDED!!!
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repost this
WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.

 

 

IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.

 

* REPOST WITH
CHINESE HOROSCOPE (Freakishly Correct)

 

have a good day. <3

 


hahaha.... how I feel about life is Gloomy Sunday. And The song that matches the one I love is zakuro XD
I am SO cheerful. It's amazing.

Seriously, this is how it went
1- 3
2- 4
3- Sam
4- brie (My sister)
5- mckenzie (which was innacurate, she probably knows me the least)
6- Tori
7- Ben (no real surprise there)
8- Zakuro. Yup. 
9- Full nelson 2nd attack by megamaso (if I knew the words I could comment XD)
10- I know where you sleep by Emilie Autumn XD Pretty accurate, I'd say
11- Gloomy Sunday. Yeah, the hungarian suicide song.

I just thought the way this turned out was so funny, I had to share my cheerfulness XD
Seriously, I should be a suicide counselor I'm so cheerful XD

I am adding to my site here... this is my (almost complete) list of every jrock song I have. I'll have more when (if) I find my spare data discs....... but here it is. If you're looking for something specific, just ctrl+f it.

D

- Face

- yami yori kurai doukoku no A CAPPELLA to bara yori akai jounetsu no ARIA

-Tsukiyo no koi uta

- Sleeper

- Shiroi yoru

- Mayutsuki no hitsugi

- kyoujin butoufu

- kuroi hanazono

- hourglass

- God's child

- Ever after

- Dearest you

- Day dream

- Art de la pista

- akumu kurai

 

Dir en grey (I have both witherind to death and marrow of a bone, but I WILL NOT post the full albums for anyone in the us, get off your ass and buy it)

- Embryo

- Zomboid

- Zakuro

- Yurameki

- Yokan

- Umbrella

- Children

- Shinsou

- Pink Killer

- Obscure

- Myaku

- Mask

- Macabre

- Kasumi

- Jessica

- I'll

- I'll (piano version live)

- Garden

- filth

- Drain away

- Ain't afraid to die

- The IIID empire

- Clever Sleazoid (single version)

- 24ko cylinder

- Amber

- New age culture

- Rasetsukoku

- R to the core

- [KR] cube

- [KR] cube (KK vomit mix)

- hotarubi

- Red... [em]

- Hydra

- Bottom of the death valley

- Egnirys cimredophy

- Riyuu

- Increase Blue

- Kigan

 

Kagerou

- Holy Needle

- XII dizzy

- Rasen Kubi

- Koukotsu jigoku

- Masatsu Shinko

- Shibire Kokoro

- Kasa

- Nikushimi no hitori shibai

- 3.2.1

- Koi uta

- Hikari no kage

- jubaku

- betsuri ro

 

Anti feminism

- Bad boy A

 

Atsushi Sakurai

- Taiji

 

12012

- Aren't you dead yet

- Knife

- Shitta kaburi ni neko kaburi

- Shudder

 

Abingdon Boys School

- Howling

- Nephilim

- Fe@k $hoW

- Dress

- Innocent Sorrow

 

Buck Tick

- Romance

- Just one more kiss

 

Gackt (STFU, I like final fantasy)

- Longing

- Orange no taiyou with Hyde

 

Gazette

- Reila

- Anti pop

- Beautiful

- Chigire

- Disorder Heaven

- Filth in the beauty

- ito

- Kawareta haru kawarenu haru

- NO. [666]

 

Girugamesh (Gilgamesh)

- Dirty blue blood

- Reality

- Volcano

 

Hyde (unless otherwise stated, it's the japanese version)

- Evergreen

- A drop of color (english)

- Horizon

- Oasis

- Season's Call

- Secret letters

- Shallow sleep (english)

- The cape of storms (english)

- The cape of storms (piano version)

- White song (english)

- Faith

 

Közi

- Nocturne

- Honey vanity

- Incoherents

- Kaikou

- Grottesca

 

Malice Mizer

- bara ni irodorareta akui to higeki no makuake

- Color me blood red

- Gardenia

- sei naru koku eien no inori

- Beast of blood

 

Metis Gretel

- Metamorphose second image

 

Phantasmagoria (why? O.o)

- Hikari ni furu ame

- Kami uta

- Neo Ark

 

Plastic Tree

- Ghost

- Aoi Tori

- Circus

- Kuuhaku no hi

- Namida Drop

- Tsuki no hikari wo tayori ni (live)

- May day

- Monophobia

- Baka ni natta no ni

 

Raphael

- Lost graduation (Silent Version)

 

Syndrome

- Sad mask

 

The Candy Spooky Theater

- A clockwork world

- Nemureru mori no hanayome (bride of the sleeping forest)

- Devilish Kidnapper

- Murder factory

- Murder toy in the closet

- Parade

- Spook house

- Trick or treat

- Nightmare

- Exosist

 

Maximum the hormone

- What's up, people!

 

Suicide Ali

- THIS NEW ORDER

- Aisubeki shikeidai

- Chainsaw

- Favorite song

 

DéspairsRay

- Squall

- Desert

- sixty nine

- Abel to Caine

- Divide Neo abomination

- Yami ni furu kiseki

- Reddish [Diva version]

- Marry of the blood

- BORN

- Garnet

- Genkaku

- Dears

- Genchou

- Gensyoku

- Facism

- Carnival

- Erode

- Zetsubou romance

- Murder freaks

- Gothic

- [tatoeba] kimi... ga.... shi....

- Furachina toiki to amai uso

- Valentine

 

Imitation pops uchuu sentai NOIZ

- Pin dan seichou ki

- Cry

- Hero

- Fat world

- From skywalker

- Japan toy's panic

- Pupa

- co2
- Miracle*Rocket G5
- Love doctor ~koi no mahou wa sono ki ga nai to kikimasen~

- 1988

- Thank you for the MUSIC

- Ichigeki hissatsu PoPs

- Welcome sp@ce disko

- igni+ion

- We are spaceworriers

- typ;n

- no.0-qt

- a'i

- paryadeiae01

- t=s or l [true=save orload]

- 0-ray

- r.a.m fish

- damage

 

Megamaso (Megamasso)

- The majority loves KILLSTAR

- Full NELSON 2nd attack

- METEO

- Mothermage = bounce

- Tou ha kouyou suru

- Yoru, sakana, kaze, tsurari na

- Umibe ga chikai tame, sabitsuki yasui mono ha ji komi shi te ha nara nai

- Dorimutoshikuretorumu

 

Rentrer en soi
-
轉生
-
水夢見る蝶マ
- 僞りの渦
- A prelude
- Crystal Letter
- Taikyou naru yosui yuugi
- Wither
- Eyes of forest
- Last word [__]
- Usu koushouku
- Ionoclasm
- Secret Scars
- Full moon

Miyavi
- sakihokoru hana no you ni -Neo Visualizm
- Kabuki Boiz
- Are you ready to rock? –Rhythm battle mix-
- Jikoai, jiga jisan, jishiki kajo (instrumental)
- Please, please, please
- Dear my love…

- Ame ni utaeba

- Are you ready to rock?

- Ashita, genki ni naare

- Dancing in the moonlight

- Akisentorikku otona yamai

- Freedom Fighters

- Fuminshou no nemurihime

- Hit the road Jack

- Itoshii hito (beta desuman.) -2006 ver.-

- Jibun kakumei

- Jingle bell
- Kekkonshiki no uta

- Kimi ni negai wo

- Merry kanshimimasu death

- Peter pan syndrome

- Requiem
- Rock no gyakushuu – Superstar no jouken

- Rock’n roll is not dead

- Son of a bitch

- Tariaritarara

- We love you

- Itoshii hito

- Aho matsuri

- Dear my friend –tegami wo kaku yo-

- Gigpig boogie

- How to love

- Oretachi dake no fighting song

- Selfish love

 

Coaltar of the deepers

- Dead by dawn

 

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Lawlz MELLO GOT HIS PERIOD

I'm such a pirate, stealing people's pictures.

But yeah I finally found the source to a couple of the pictures I'd posted, and I nearly died laughing at this.


AHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH


I'm sorry but how else can you take that?

Addicted to naruto music

I have no idea why. All of a sudden, my mind went "WHEEE Naruto pirating spree!" I just really wanted to hear the opening songs for some reason. It's slowly bubbling over. I just hope I don't start trying to draw naruto stuff, I suck at that style of drawing. On a scale of 1-10, my drawing skill is about a negative 3.466. 

Or

Mummy boy, Stick boy, and more JTHM

Finally bothered to upload these ones, most are unfinished and will most likely stay that way, mostly out of laziness.

Two JTHM scribbles

Well here are two scribbles I drew a while ago. They're not the best, but I'm still learning to draw in general XD

Pheonix down

Well I've decided to get a new LJ. I'm really sick of all the crap that was on my old one. It had no purpose and it looked horrible. So I'm restarting with a new account, but a not-so-new name. Hopefully I will be good and start posting the things I've done soon so that you all can see them ^_^
So yes, I will try and post any fanart, doodles, poems, and other random pen-and-paper related things.